How God Delivered Me from Postpartum Anxiety Caused by a Spirit Spouse

Part 1: The Struggle

After having my first child, I entered one of the most intense spiritual and emotional battles of my life. I had been believing God for a natural birth, but instead I had a C-section and developed preeclampsia. The recovery was long and painful, and I was left to deal with postpartum hypertension which required me to be on medication after I had my baby. Instead of the joy I expected after welcoming my baby, I found myself in a storm of fear, anxiety, and dark spiritual attacks.

The enemy bombarded me with relentless thoughts: “What if you’re not going to live to see your child grow up. What if your child dies as a baby. What if you do something wrong that will kill your child, you don’t even know what you are doing.” I pictured myself dying and leaving my baby. These weren’t passing fears; they were constant and oppressive. My body reacted with racing heartbeats, tachycardia, and palpitations so intense I could barely function.

Spiritually, I felt disconnected. I couldn’t pray. I couldn’t feel God’s presence. For someone who had always walked closely with Him, this was devastating.

Looking back, I see this attack didn’t come out of nowhere. Before my pregnancy, I had kept a toxic female family member in my life who often spoke negative words over me. After my baby’s birth, she visited. When someone complimented how good I looked, she quickly said, “Oh, the weight comes after, and so does depression.” I brushed it off at the time because I was used to her speaking like that, but those words were like seeds planted in my vulnerable heart.

What I didn’t realize was that my postpartum vulnerability, combined with her negative influence, had opened a spiritual door. This wasn’t just postpartum anxiety; it was a coordinated spiritual attack tied to a spirit spouse and ancestral patterns of oppression. It took the Holy Spirit’s revelation for me to see the root, renounce those agreements, and start walking in freedom.

During this time, my husband was at work most of the day, and I was home alone with my baby. As a first-time mom, I didn’t know what I was doing. Just getting out of bed was a victory. My marriage felt strained. My husband didn’t fully understand spiritual warfare, and I felt painfully alone.

On top of the mental torment, I battled a fear of hospitals, constant intrusive thoughts about my health, and full-blown health anxiety. The attacks escalated. Even before I was cleared to be intimate with my husband, I began to experience spirit spouse sexual encounters at night followed by the spirit spouse giving me dreams of men chasing me with machetes, trying to kill me. This pattern continued systematically, leaving me paralyzed in the mornings and unable to care for my child.

But even in that dark season, God sent help. I heard him say to me; ask around!  ask for help. His grace came to me in the form of a friend who allowed me to hire her 13-year-old daughter for a small amount of money to come and help babysit. This girl became my lifeline; she would carry my baby, help me around the house, and simply be there.

I heard God whisper, “Pray in tongues. Just keep praying.” From morning until night, whatever I was doing, I prayed in tongues. 

The Turning Point: Obedience and the Word of God

The heart palpitations would take my breath away, leaving me dizzy and unable to complete even small tasks. As I cried out to God for help, His voice began to pierce through the darkness. The next instruction He gave me felt almost impossible: “Go and get your heart checked.” For someone bound by severe fear of the hospitals, this was terrifying. 

But I remembered how God had already helped me overcome fear before. When I was believing Him for a child, I had to conquer my fear of hospitals to give birth. Now, He was asking me to go even deeper. So I began to rebuke the spirit of fear. I clung to 2 Timothy 1:7 “For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” I kept reciting that Scripture and singing one of the seven songs from heaven as I walked into the hospital.

With trembling hands but a resolute heart, I stepped into the doctor’s office. They ran the tests. The doctor looked at me and said, “Your heart is fine. You’re just experiencing tachycardia. You need to sleep, rest, and drink water.”

When I came home that night, the Lord confronted me gently: “You know this is a spiritual problem. I’m going to give you three chapters of the Bible to read.” This was new for me. I wasn’t someone deeply immersed in the Word at the time; I knew some verses I had used during my struggle with trying to conceive, but never before had I received such specific instruction.

God told me to read Matthew 8, Isaiah 53, and Psalm 35 every day. These passages spoke of Jesus’ authority over sickness and storms (Matthew 8), His suffering and healing power (Isaiah 53), and His deliverance from enemies (Psalm 35). For about a month, I would sit on the floor, barely able to read, but I read them out loud anyway.

As I prayed and read, God began to show me through online searches and His own whisper that what I was experiencing was postpartum anxiety. God began to lift the physical symptoms, the tachycardia and the heart palpitations. Slowly, His Word became life to me. As Proverbs 4:20–22 says, “My son, attend to my words…for they are life unto those that find them, and health to all their flesh. “Yet even as the physical symptoms lifted, the obsessive and debilitating thoughts remained. But I held onto the Word. The Word was building a foundation for the breakthrough that was coming.

As I began to feel relief from the heart palpitations, I slowly started getting stronger. Then God gave me the next instruction; He said, “You must speak the truth in love and confront the toxic family member for her words were curses over you which landed because you are afraid of her and have made her approval of you your idol.” This was something I never thought I could do. You see, I was such a people pleaser; I never knew how to stand up for myself. Without realizing it, I had erected an idol in my soul toward the toxic family member who had spoken over me. I viewed her as an authority figure and could not even imagine confronting her. 

Shaking to my bones, I picked up the phone and called this family member with respect and humility. “When you said those words over me, when someone praised me after childbirth and you said, ‘The weight will come later, and with it comes depression’ I didn’t like that.” She tried to justify herself, but in that moment, I heard myself boldly say, “It will not happen for me this way.”

That day, the spirit of postpartum anxiety broke. Proverbs 18:21 says, “Death and life are in the power of the tongue.” By confronting her words and replacing them with God’s words, I aligned myself with life.

Even after that, a few symptoms lingered. The Lord told me gently, “Start slowly walking down the stairs of your house. Take your son outside for walks. Walk slowly. Keep reading the three chapters until the symptoms, the thoughts, and the palpitations are gone.” I obeyed. Within about 2 months, every symptom; physical and mental; was completely gone. Hallelujah!

Part 2: Breaking Down Postpartum Anxiety

What Is Postpartum Anxiety?

While postpartum depression is more widely recognized, many new mothers experience postpartum anxiety, which is less often talked about. Postpartum anxiety is marked by excessive worry, racing thoughts, restlessness, panic attacks, and physical symptoms like a rapid heartbeat or dizziness. Unlike postpartum depression, where sadness, hopelessness, and lack of interest are central, postpartum anxiety is driven by overwhelming fear and “what if” thinking, often about the baby’s safety or the mother’s own health. Research shows that as many as 10–15% of new mothers experience postpartum anxiety, but because it’s less studied and less screened for, many women go undiagnosed and unsupported. Postpartum anxiety is often misunderstood. Many search for postpartum depression and I did too, but God in his mercy whispered to me “Try placing postpartum before anxiety in the search bar” and that was what helped me finally name what I was dealing with. You see what I was experiencing was fear-driven:

• Fear of death
• Fear of motherhood
• Fear of being alone
• Fear of not being able to cope
• Fear of change and the new season

These fears formed strongholds in my mind and body. The devil often disguises spiritual attacks under physical symptoms, and in my case, my anxiety was tied to a spirit spouse attack and not a chemical imbalance. But God began to guide me with Scripture, teaching me that my fight was against fear and not despair.

Isaiah 40:11 and Psalm 113 became my song of strength, and it was from this place that I birthed my 2nd single Worship Song.

“He tends his flock like a shepherd: He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young.” (Isaiah 40:11, NIV) it paints the picture of the Lord as the gentle Shepherd leading mothers who feel weak, scared, and overwhelmed. It shows His tenderness toward women with babies, psalm 113 is a reminder that God gives the woman power in her home to care for her household. 

I also meditated on the passages in Hebrew 2 that speak to those bound by the fear of death, reminding me that God alone is my deliverer. Hebrews 2:14–15. It says:

“Since the children have flesh and blood, he too shared in their humanity so that by his death he might break the power of him who holds the power of death; that is, the devil— and free those who all their lives were held in slavery by their fear of death.”

One night, after reading these Scriptures, I had a vivid dream: I saw myself as an old, fragile woman, and my son, Aiden, grown into a man, carrying me to put me in a coffin. At first, the dream was frightening. I had been plagued by thoughts that my child would die and that I might die. But God reassured me: “This is not a strange dream. Your son is going to bury you at an old ripe age, you are not going to die and leave him with no mother to raise him, you will die when he no longer needs you to raise him and you are not going to bury him.”

Deliverance Blueprint from Postpartum Anxiety (Tied to Spirit Spouses)

1. Cry Out to God in Honesty
   • Don’t hide your despair; pour it out before Him (Psalm 34:17).
2. Pray in Tongues Continually
   • Even if you feel weak, let the Spirit intercede through you (Romans 8:26).
3. Read and Declare Scripture Daily
   • Read Matthew 8 (Jesus’ authority), Psalm 35 (deliverance), Isaiah 53 (healing).
   • Speak them out loud until truth replaces lies.
4. Confront Negative Words and Soul Ties
   • Identify curses spoken over you.
   • Break them by saying: “I renounce those words. I believe God’s words instead.”

Pray: “Lord, I break every negative soul tie between me and this family member. I renounce believing her words over Your Word. I command every demonic spirit that came into my life after pregnancy to go to the pit of hell and never return to me again. Amen.”

1. Command Demons to Leave
   • Use your authority in Christ: “I command every spirit spouse spirit of fear, postpartum anxiety, and spirit spouse attack to leave me now, in Jesus’ name.” (Mark 16:17).
2. Take Practical Healing Steps
   • Drink calming teas like chamomile to steady your body.
   • Get outside in nature; take slow walks.
   • Rest, hydrate, and allow your nervous system to reset.
3. Replace Fear with Faith
   • Declare 2 Timothy 1:7 daily.
   • Worship, sing, and shift the atmosphere in your home.
4. Stay Free
   • Don’t return to people-pleasing or receiving curses.
   • Keep God’s Word as your anchor.
   • If you need support, join a prayer group or community of faith.

Keeping My Promise

Years ago, while crying out to God, I made a simple promise: “Father, if You free me, I will write about this testimony.” I had no idea at the time that He was calling me to be a worship and deliverance minister. Now, almost 14 years later, I am keeping that promise, sharing the story so that other mothers can find hope, freedom, and strength in God.

Altar Call

If you do not yet know Christ, the first step toward freedom is surrendering your life to Him. Romans 10:9-10 says:

“If you declare with your mouth, ‘Jesus is Lord,’ and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved.”

“Lord Jesus, I believe You died for me and rose again. I confess my sins and I ask You to forgive me. Today, I surrender my life to You. Be my Lord, my Savior, and my true Bridegroom. I renounce every covenant with the enemy, and I receive Your love and freedom. In Jesus’ name, amen.”

If you prayed that prayer, welcome to the family of God!  If you already know Christ, your next step is to seek freedom through obedience, prayer, and applying God’s Word daily.

Next Steps

• Purchase my book: From Bondage to Freedom provides a detailed blueprint for breaking free from spirit spouses and other strongholds.
• Join the Childlike with Abba Prayer Room: Meet every Monday for live teaching, prayer, and deliverance support.
• Attend a Worship Event: Encounter God’s presence in an atmosphere of freedom, healing, and breakthrough.
• Listen to my deliverance songs: Listen to the 7 Songs based on the 7 keys God gave me in my long but victorious battle with a spirit spouse to fill your atmosphere with the presence of God through worship.